in wonderland
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hello! i am going through cold no 3 for thistime in bed encourages retro/intro spection; it's now definite that i am growing up. and no matter how much i like remaining a little girl, i can't hold back becoming an adult; a woman. either i want it or not. maybe, it's my last wisdom tooth coming at the moment. maybe, it's the last two emotionally hectic years.
sister says that when time is right it might be a good thing to become an adult. maybe, i got tired of being a kid. tired of going through the same phase again and again; repeat the same living {and emotional} pattern. maybe, i just need to move on and make the next step.
transition, though, seems confusing; what to keep and what to discard. also, self-consuming; maybe, because i was too cosy in my extended childhood. and my belated womanhood seems serious and demanding. but maybe not. maybe, the difficult part has just passed.
for the time being, i just wish you a beautiful week.
p.s. i crave for a picnic under a full moon. like alice above.
toodle pip!
♬ & ♬